This is the second all nighter I've pulled- not studying, but drinking and having fun.
I can't deny that I'm having the time of my life and making great friends here but there comes a point in time when I ask myself: what is this for?
Why am I doing this instead of studying?
and the question takes a mighty u turn:
Why am I studying instead of doing this?
I'm losing my sight. My vision.
Before, there was nothing that I held dear to. Now there is: my friends.
But then again, sometimes a scene from "you're the apple of my eyes haunt me"
(attempts to youtube it but fails)
it's the scene where the girl flunked her As. and cries about how for all her life, "我只会读书", and now that it failed her, she doesn't know what to do.
Granted, I'm not as wimpy as she is but really, for all my life, the only achievements I've had were in the academic world. They are not legendary, but they've pulled me through time after time.
What if I don't do well this time?
I kinda fear for my future.
But what does it hold for me?
No one knows...
I can't deny that I'm having the time of my life and making great friends here but there comes a point in time when I ask myself: what is this for?
Why am I doing this instead of studying?
and the question takes a mighty u turn:
Why am I studying instead of doing this?
I'm losing my sight. My vision.
Before, there was nothing that I held dear to. Now there is: my friends.
But then again, sometimes a scene from "you're the apple of my eyes haunt me"
(attempts to youtube it but fails)
it's the scene where the girl flunked her As. and cries about how for all her life, "我只会读书", and now that it failed her, she doesn't know what to do.
Granted, I'm not as wimpy as she is but really, for all my life, the only achievements I've had were in the academic world. They are not legendary, but they've pulled me through time after time.
What if I don't do well this time?
I kinda fear for my future.
But what does it hold for me?
No one knows...
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