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just another random worldview

Imagine a circle- from the centre of it, millions and billions of infinitely thin lines can be draw outwards. In each of the line, millions and billions of dots can be draw on it.

Imagine that you are a dot and the line is the idea of change. You can move towards the centre or away from the centre-it's completely up to you (horraye free will!).

now every other dot are the millions and billions of people in the world.

The idea of competition makes sense if you're a dot- are you closer to the centre than I am? how many steps away are you from me?? but if we view ourselves as a line, we are all the same! Everyone is just wired a bit differently, making a slightly different degree with true north (if true north actually existed).

And when you reach closer to the centre (which is not everybody's goal), you see that all lines converges into one dot. But when you go even closer, you get a feeling that the dot doesn't exist- there is no "enlightenment, it's actually a black hole going deeper and deeper into another dimension we can't perceive (into the paper). The dot in the middle we saw at the start is merely the amalgamation of the consciousness of a million other people who started out like yourself and decided to walk toward the middle of the circle.





And this dot may just be yet another dot on yet another line of yet another circle in yet another sphere. 


How small are we 
How tall we stand

the core is empty
there's nothing in the end 

there is no end
but it gets warmer when we are close

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