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When I was younger (by that I mean 14), I read a chain letter online about life,
those that I still get, but I no longer bother reading anymore.


It said smth like



When you're young, you have all the energy, and time, but no money.
As an adult, you've got all the energy, and money, but no time.
Lastly, when you are old, you have all the money and time, but no energy.



I wonder which is worse.


It struck my mind today bc I visited a 1 year old and a 61 year old back to back.
looking at how Charlotte messes up the room, smiles at everything, and make random sound, observing how my granny walks in a x0.2 speed and not able to hold on to slips of paper properly, having my brain juxtapose the images of the two apartments I've visited.

one was colorful and full of joy. the other one. was empty. void of life..


it's like I'd just visited the neighbour of life and death itself
(choy btw. my granny will live to 111 years old, and I'll buy 4d 1111 and I'll win 111 million)


it's really. sobering. to be able to sit back, not consider myself as a bearer of life, and observe life like this.


back to the impossible trinity of money, time, and energy.


I'm unable to turn back time to secretly stuff bills of 50 into my past,
so the moneyless me has been and will be.

but in the future, I'll allow my kids to do whatever they want, no matter how much it costs.


German lessons may cost a bomb (in the teenager's context), tgth with its stock of trade.
but a language is not something that one can pick up overnight, and the best time to develop linguistic abilities is undeniably when one is young.

I swear to myself, that if a skill if decent, and my kid is interested in it, I'll provide all the monetary requirement for him/her to go for lessons.

so that I can revert this situation of having time, energy, but no money.



next, in 2 months time I'll be officially an adult.
and I will not. spend too much time in my career and forget about life.


..


damn it. I think you get the point of my entry, I feel quite gelat of blogging about this. ahhaha I'll keep the thoughts in my brainy brain!!! bye.

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