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I'm glad you're home

The time was 3:13- it has been 2 hours since we started. She mentioned something about being on the wrong path and how there's a need to u-turn before falling off a cliff.


My mind wasn't processing any of that.


She bent down and showed me something on her phone: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you."


My mind wanders off.. Is it really true? What do I have to base on?


We've been seeing each other for several months now. One thing I recall is her saying that "You've been deceived". Is that what I needed to hear?


It's been a while since I've had thoughts go through my mind.. This medicine I'm taking is numbing my senses and thoughts..


The time now is 7:40. I remember her feeling thirsty and getting a drink. After a while, she told me to speak to Him. I got winded on orange. "Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one"


We were created from dust and spirit inherits dust through the breath. 

She spoke about having seeds sprout out and grow. All I can think of is the seed I've planted in her. Oh I wish I didn't but I was called to do so.


The melting pot of beige- Please don't grow.. She is happier if she remains as she is..


For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. 


In whatever condition each was called, there let him remain with Him.


I didn't used to be like this.

I was happy-go-lucky. Fun, interesting and ready for action. Why did things slow down? How did things slow down? I don't even know who I am anymore.


I see the cliff. He says: "I'm glad you're home".


If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you withhold forgiveness from any, it is withheld.

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