okay I'm totally gonna be late for Econs mock, but heck, I feel the need to blog
hope the stream of thoughts won't stop!
well, I've been under lots and lots of stress this week,
mainly bc of h3.
story goes like this:
it's been almost a year since I've touched graph theory and de, and going for lessons without prior reading/preparation made me feel like an ass ( the stupid kind ). I was struck hard by the amount of things that I don't know, and felt like there's so much, so much that I'll have to do to catch up.
I went back home and dug out all my notes.
but for the past week, they laid untouched (much like my GP notes and my Econs notes, now scattered all around my messy room).
the thing is that I've got this mental block that there's just so much to cover and so little time. I feel that no matter what I do, I won't be able to complete revision in time.
what a foolish idea, come to think of it.
with this reluctance to start studying, I feared the many trail h3 tests that went on last week. I skipped the first and was extremely unwilling to go for the second, having the mindset that it can only demoralise me more, making me cognizant of how much I really don't know.
but lo and behold, trail paper 2 was manageable.
(well, it was deemed to be tough by teachers and it didn't drive me crazy)
in retrospect, I realise that all these stress and anxiety are mostly induced. the lazy bug in me didn't really wanna study and it just defecated stress into my bloodstream making me believe that it is not possible.
well, as banal as it may be, nothing is really impossible.
don't allow yourself to screw you up. fend against you. you're your biggest nemesis.
if you're thinking that you can screw studying for As bc 'there will be not enough time anyway', don't. really.
it's all in your mind.
and there's still ample time left.
try thinking that since time's so short, it's all gonna be over soon!
plan your graduation vacation during stressful times,
look towards to future, don't be snared by the moment.
we have to.
fallacious, yes, but not without a hint of truth:
don't be afraid and you'll not be afraid.
guess I'll be working on the piles and piles of notes really soon.
there's enough time, really.
now, go study!
(wee, first ever completed blog entry since I started twitting :D) (Y)
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