I'm reading this book, laughing my way through it. It isn't a funny novel- it's about death, morbid death and separation. It's about loss and human's lack. It's about appreciation and cherishing and leaving a legacy- not so that everyone knows you, but so that you impact everyone.
Throughout the book, I find myself laughing at the saddest part- the part where he leaves his final words for his child, the part where he discovers what his dad left for him; parts where I was expected to feel doleful. As they say, laughter is the best medicine.
I guess it's my ego; despite being alone at home, I refuse to allow myself to be in a vulnerable position. I never would want others to know that I've teared reading such a book (that I guess everyone would cry in). Hence, I laugh, trying to switch my emotion in that instant of heart wrench. Once I overcome that impulse, everything will be alright.
Laughter has this sacrosanct job. I've been misusing it all along, for crude humor, for brainless entertainment (which usually backfires due to my poor sense of humor), for moving the crowd. But no. Laughter is the best mask. Even it's free to use, use it well.
Throughout the book, I find myself laughing at the saddest part- the part where he leaves his final words for his child, the part where he discovers what his dad left for him; parts where I was expected to feel doleful. As they say, laughter is the best medicine.
I guess it's my ego; despite being alone at home, I refuse to allow myself to be in a vulnerable position. I never would want others to know that I've teared reading such a book (that I guess everyone would cry in). Hence, I laugh, trying to switch my emotion in that instant of heart wrench. Once I overcome that impulse, everything will be alright.
Laughter has this sacrosanct job. I've been misusing it all along, for crude humor, for brainless entertainment (which usually backfires due to my poor sense of humor), for moving the crowd. But no. Laughter is the best mask. Even it's free to use, use it well.
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