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Spring cleaned my room when I came back from Sheares. Wanted to do a blog post about it, but I kind of forgot. The part which I didn't clear up was this cabinet full of Christian stuff- my bible, my old notes from CG song sheets, my bible study books and other magazines. Today, I kind of.. took them out and threw some away..



It felt like a whole chunk of my life just got dished out like this: how I used to be, how much God changed me, and what I would have (not) become without Him. Sec 1-Sec 4, that's 4 years. My longest relationship to date and I just ditched Him for a budding relationship. Maybe that's why I'm suffering now..





My old bible was really hard to throw: Sister Serena and Aileen bought it for me when I was baptised in the Holy Spirit. I used it dutifully night after night. Just check out how crumpled the front cover is. It's so used.. Like we all are..



I then uncovered the book of Genesis, which I copied word by word into an exercise book. I was hoping to give it to Serena for her wedding but I got detached before that. It's a regret I hold even till today..



I don't know whawt I'm doing with my life know but I do see myself walking back to God.. Some day, some how.

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