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I hate myself and I think I ought to die. I can't concentrate in school for the whole day and fell asleep on several occasions. I keep eating like a fucking pig. I keep tearing and tearing for no fucking reason. I can't control myself and Idk what on earth am I here for"



well, neither would I wanna type it, knowing that you don't really want to see what I'm feeling. I don't want this to be a platform to showcase what you wanna see. I need this space as a Catharsis. with this, I disappear.

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