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Feel like shit

I need a better outlet for my time money and effort.

Think I'm wasting my life away. and for what? I don't even know.
She asks me "what do you gain from this"
I can't reply
I don't know the answers to most of her questions.
I'm puzzled myself

and hence I choose to keep silence.
This hurts me (albeit less) as well.
but what is there to say?


There's so many things that are fucked up in my life right now, I can't even be bothered listing them down.
I don't even know what to start with
and here, the paradox of choice manifests itself;
I remain still only cause there's just too many things to run away from

and that is my choice of escape

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